I haven't written here in forever it feels. I've been working a lot lately and trying to save money. I've been being more social, by hanging with my friends when they invite me out. I've been writing a gratitude of the day every morning and every night. I have post-it notes and a jar right by my bed--so that it is the first thing I see in the morning. I also meditate before going to bed, so I'm relaxed and my head is clear. I've been finding I have more intense dreams when I do so.
Something that I've also been proud of is, I've been writing a lot. I've been writing about personal things, such as the relationship I have with my mother, times in which I had low-self esteem, the feeling of being misunderstood often. I feel those are things, I often don't discuss or write about. For me, writing has always been therapeutic. I feel I mostly write love poems, but am glad to be exploring different horizons with my writing. I want to write another poetry book---this time more with poems that are short yet meaningful. I already have some book titles in mind. Another thing that I want to get back into is, recording myself reading my poems and posting it on soundcloud.
Other than that, things have been going quite well. I just wish I could find a second job, so that I can live comfortably rather than paycheck to paycheck. I want my paycheck to come without me feeling the need to rush to the bank the moment I get it. I've been applying, applying, applying. I know something will fall through soon enough--at the right time.