Yesterday evening, I was pretty sad and not in a good mood--When I got home yesterday, I went straight to my room--laid in bed and cried for I'd say about 20 minutes straight. I felt completely overwhelmed by my circumstances and how everything is turning out and I felt everything was turning against me--I've been holding a lot in and I guess last night it all hit me at once.. I've been so stressed, I've had a persisting headache for the last few days due to stress and I also haven't been able to eat--as my appetite hasn't even been there really--I have to force myself to eat. I ended up falling asleep before 10:30pm last night.
Today, I woke up and I don't want these issues effecting my mood--as I have no control over them. And maybe all these things are happening for an important reason, that just hasn't revealed itself yet. One of my favorite quotes is, "Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless — like water. Now you put water in a cup, it becomes the cup; You put water into a bottle it becomes the bottle; You put it in a teapot it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash. Be like water my friend" by the one and only Bruce Lee. I use to live by that quote faithfully--I use to just flow and let what is suppose to happen occur, but I know I have not been going with the flow for a while. I need to get back to that and not become so consumed by thoughts and circumstances. This week, I want to be more happy, not be so worried/stressed, I just want to be in the now---not worrying about why, when, what, how...
Be like water, my friend. I Love You.