Hi there, haven't written in a few days..... I think it sucks when you really miss someone and don't hear from them for a few days. Nothing hurts more than feeling ignored by the one you love--especially when you know you haven't done anything. Just a simple text telling me they're having fun and that they're fine and safe would satisfy me---maybe I'm asking for too much. I don't know. It's the little gestures that mean the most to me-I like to think I'm a simple person to please-maybe I am wrong. Makes me feel as if I shouldn't have been missing them--as they obviously weren't thinking about me. Everything has been perfect, amazing and going great between us(at least from my pov)--so I'm sorry if I did something that made them feel the need to distance themselves from me, but I rather them tell me than to be distant---because then how am I suppose to fix it? *sigh* I just miss them that's all..... but if they want space--okay, I'll give it to them...

This weekend was overall chill--hung out, babysat, recorded some stuff(hopefully will release first YouTube video this week! It will be with no edits, since I still don’t have my mac 🙁), took a dance class!!!, submitted my poetry manuscript in a contest, applied for jobs, painted, watched anime, did some work stuff. I'll be glad when this hot weather goes away for good--still waiting to break out in my fall fashion! I've been waiting for a longggggg time, I'm ready for the cold. 

Waiting.....

P.S. Here's a link to a poem I wrote last week, while HIGH. Don't truly remember writing this but ha, I like it. rlsoul.com/rlsoul/2017/10/7/yr74fbowlrjx7zc2i3jssa5jr3ff13

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