Goodbye

I've decided that I will be leaving a few people and things behind in 2017. I will be unfollowing social media accounts that have no real purpose for me. I'm at an age and point where if I feel my gestures, kindness and love aren't being returned then why keep trying? This time of year is always hard for me emotionally due to me reflecting on the year. This year has been a journey full of ups and downs.

Living is hard. Being alive is hard. It takes a lot out of you. It's a shame that social media has become the way it is. The ideal image of what's beautiful in constantly thrown in our face. From ads to commercials and the worst of all through music videos. Black women are extremely sexualized and that saddens me. I don't want to be liked nor loved for my outer beauty, I want to be loved for what's on the inside--for how kind, caring, thoughtful, creative, intelligent and so on. I want someone to like me for things that stretch beyond physical attributes, I want them to appreciate the kind gestures, I want to be loved and appreciated the same way I love and appreciate others. 

I have to say goodbye to a few things this year. It will be hard, but I'll be alright in due time....eventually. *sigh*

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