It's almost my 27th birthday. I feel a bit uneasy about it, I'm not where I want to be in life at the moment. I'm still living at home with my mom, I'm working at a job that doesn't bring me much pleasure, I'm struggling financially--literally living paycheck to paycheck. I'm paying student loans, still have my car payment, my phone bill, and then needed necessities. I'm literally barely getting by. I had to tell my car people that I couldn't pay this month--they weren't excited about that, but what can I do?

I see friends who get financial support from their parents, yet they still complain about not having enough. I have never been in the position where I could ask my parents for financial help. I've always had to fend for myself. Even in high school, I got a Summer job before my senior year and paid for my prom and stuff. I hope that if I'm ever blessed to have children that I'll be able to provide for them when they're in need. I don't want my kids to have to struggle or feel alone when it comes to financial matters. It would be nice to have someone to lean on financially--but I don't even ask or let it be known that I'm struggling--I just try and keep it moving.

I've been trying my hardest to put myself out there and be more vocal with my poetry and feelings in general. I really would love to visit San Jose this Summer, but money is preventing that. I really wanted to go during Spring Break. Anyways that's all for now. 

Peace & Love