There are times when my mind becomes consumed by all the things I "lack". I begin to compare my chapter 10 to someone else's chapter 10. But what I have to remember is, we all reach certain points in our life, when the time is right. It's not about age when it comes to success. It's about staying consistent, persistent and determined. I must constantly remind myself, "You're doing a good job. You may not be where you want to be, but you are where you need to be." There was a point where I wanted to give up on follow certain dreams. Sometimes, I feel as if I have no one there to support me or root for me. But over the last few years, I've realized I'm my own biggest fan, I'm my own cheerleader. I'm always rooting for myself, even when I've seemed to lose a sense of direction. I've come so far, I've accomplished many things--I'm just so damn hard on myself.
I'm stubborn as can be! I know my weaknesses and I know my strengths. I sometimes let my fears take hold of the steering wheel, while I'm just sitting there as a passenger, but I'm learning to take the wheel myself. I'm learning to face fears. I'm learning to shed my layers. I'm learning to be vulnerable. I'm learning to speak my truth. I'm learning to not let defeats/setbacks/failures keep me down or sulking for too long. There will be days when I think I won't make it, there will be days when I don't know what will come next, there will be days when I wonder if it's worth it, there will be days when I question my passions and dreams.
Last week, I opened a fortune cookie that said, "It is time to let your quiet soul sing." I felt that was a sign indeed---a sign to start trusting in myself more, to start to believing in myself more, believing in my art more, believing in my mission-my vision. Keep going! Start being more consistent, persistent, and trust in yourself!
Onward, my dear, onward.