Hello World...

Hello world!

Whoopsies for not writing. I didn't really have any words to say. I believe 3 days have passed since I wrote. Hmm, let's see--what has happened since. Well, since then, I heard back from a program that I applied for in June and they wanted to tell me I got in and also received the Scholarship. The program is with UCLA, the jest of it is to teach and educate educators in the arts. The program is 8 Saturdays starting in September. I will learn techniques to how to properly handle/assist those in need(those dealing with mental issues/struggling to let out anger/emotions/those looking for a positive outlet). At the end of the program, I will receive a certificate. So, I'm excited about that and all that I will learn. And I'm very thankful that they are willing to help me financially. 

Also, the talk that I had been waiting to have finally happened. And I can say, I feel much better. I didn't really have much to say--as I feel I wrote so much that I got everything out. I did discuss how I feel-- I do not communicate as well as I should and also how I fear abandonment--which stems from my childhood etc. I know that there are things I have to work on and I'm happy to know that they are willing to stay/stick by me as I learn, grow and try to better myself/become the best me. I'm glad to have their support--I am very thankful for them--I truly do love them--And I appreciate them for always helping me grow. I'm grateful for this opportunity to grow and progress together. Also. I guess I fear when people see a weakness or flaw in me, they'll leave--Whereas, I always like to "preach" about it's okay to have flaws/imperfections--yet I don't tell myself that- It is true that I fear people will leave---It is something I really am trying to work on. 

Trust that-- I definitely do love myself! I just think there are parts of myself that I am still a bit afraid to show, to let be seen for fear of judgment. This is me saying

So,
CHEERS to New Growth, Facing Fears, Letting go of the fear of being judged & Learning to truly love ALL of myself, unapologetically without fear.

xo 2: 37pm xo