Morning...

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Yesterday, I received a random message on Instagram with some screenshots. Basically they said something along the lines of such and such is a flirt and flirting/talking with others. Now, this really upset me. One because we recently just got over a bump in the road, Two because the first & second time I was ever cheated on---I found out through social media. So, this really triggered me seeing the exchange between said person and another girl--mainly because it was sexual and to me it did seem like he was flirting. This isn't the first time I've seen them respond flirty/sexual to another girl-so it angered me and in the moment, when I saw it, I felt lied to, hurt and confused....-Why did said person have to respond in a sexual manner? Now it makes me think they respond in a sexual manner often to others...Though I know when it comes to their comedy-- being sexual is their forte(which I don't mind, cuz it's funny), but responding to other girls in a sexual way did make me feel some type of way--

Since, I was angered by the dm, I took some time to cool down and then texted them asking if they were indeed talking/flirting with others. And they said no--and then I told them about the dm I received. The main reason I no longer have a Facebook is due to that exact reason! Seeing my ex flirt with another girl---when I asked him about it--he said I have nothing to worry about and I believed him, until a few weeks later I see him tagged in a picture with the girl. And then he told me the truth after being caught. 

This time around, I was told the same thing, that it's nothing---and I'm really going to try hard not to overthink the situation and trust them---but I can't lie that the fear/thought is now in the back of my mind....

Thanks random person for peeling off the scab of past wounds....

grrrrr....10:30am