Open Letter.

Dear Raven....

Today has been a day. I've been feeling very emotional, sensitive and in my feelings. I've been trying to stay out of my head and it worked at first, but today it made it's way through my protective barriers and into my mind and there went my mind--overthinking and racing. Here let me explain.

Dear Raven: I can see at the moment that you feel overwhelmed by family situations, financial situations and career choice situations. I hope you remain strong during this time of confusion and stress. I hope you keep pushing through. Stop being so hard on yourself and stop worrying about the things that you can't acquire yet. You only can live in the NOW. Do not worry so much, everything comes at the right moment. Please trust and believe in that. Trust your abilities, your talents, your drive. Do not give up on life, I know it gets hard and sometimes can feel like you're alone and have the weight of the world on your shoulders, but chin up love. Stop believing you're too old to pursue certain interests and endeavors that you have no experience in; look for ways to gain the experience. Also you'll be able to get your own place eventually, you're taking the steps now(building your credit)--once you start work budget your money and SAVE! I know living at home at your age brings you down and isnt ideal because you feel at your age, you shouldn't be living at home. But stop judging yourself, chin up beautiful.

Do not let your fears hold you back nor hinder you.Do not let the words of others/family bring you down. Do not let issues you can't control-control you. Do not compare your life to others--you too, are just as special, are just as beautiful, are just as deserving, are just as worthy--please remember that. Write it down somewhere so you can see that message in the morning. Your beauty is beautiful too. You do not realize how beautiful you are and that's ashame...

You're a creature of habit and routine and I know you're also a bit sad that you won't get to spend as much time with AM as before, but you'll still get to spend time with him. I know you're thinking about how you'll miss him and that extra time you spent together--but be grateful for the time you are getting. Some time is better than NO time at all. Some couples only get to see each other on the weekend! People make time for what they want to make time for no matter what. I know you'll make time and are scared AM might think you don't have time for him or scared he'll think it's not enough time or scared AM won't make time for you, but they've been by your side this long---so what are you so afraid of? You're Afraid of Abandonment.....

Stay strong, stay positive, be creative, stay motivated, trust and believe the timing and process of things. I know you may not see the light now in all of this--but the light is there.

TRUST

9:31pm