For as long as I can remember, I wanted to pursue a career that helps other. Being a teacher isn't very satisfying as I thought it would be--at least at the preschool level that is. This morning I found out my application was declined for Grad School. Though I didn't express it much, but I was really looking forward to going back to school and being back in the school environment learning more about things that interests me, so that I can help others. I have always thought of myself as a counselor of sorts as my friends and family, always turn to me for advice--the human mind and way of thinking has always interested me. I was so sure that counseling was my calling...is it not?
Being declined really hurt because I waited so long to apply and finally did so. If that isn't my path in life, then what is? I wonder what my purpose is, I feel doors have just been getting closed on me. I'm waiting for the silver lining in everything. I do have a job right now, so that is good--so I can start saving, but this job isn't something I want long term. I'm feeling pretty conflicted and lost at the moment.
What is my purpose? What is my purpose? *sigh*