Happy Friday.

The one thing that has been bothering me through these hardships is the fact that I haven't been able to eat. It's frustrating because I worked really hard to reach my ideal weight and ideal look; but now it's all gone. I weighed 155 now I'm at 131, so discouraging. I've mostly been eating one meal a day; oatmeal or eggs--and have been drinking tea or hot chocolate; as that is all that is available to me. I can't even go to the dollar menu at McDonald's! How embarrassing and unfortunate. Sometimes I go to bed and my stomach sounds like a thunderstorm. It's most likely why I have't been able to eat as much as I use to...because I haven't had food to be eating and my stomach has grown smaller--saddening.

I couldn't sleep the other night and I was online looking for food banks that give away free food--but no luck--they all were mostly open M, T, W and serve during certain hours. Also, some are all the way in LA, but I don't have gas to be taking random trips. I babysit Sunday, so I know that I'll for sure get a good meal then--as I will be taking the kid to get lunch. I'm losing all this weight and I really can't afford to lose any more weight--I don't want to go back to being the weight I was. I have that I lack the funds to get food. And then home life is burdening as my mom nitpicks at every single thing---she is very narcissistic. I'm just trying to stay positive. 

Hoping good things & opportunity comes my way soon.